Life is not always rainbows and butterflys

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michaelxbaby
My mother had me when she just turned 20, my father was a drug addict stupid ass boy..... she finally left him when i was just a new born.....he went to jail for robbing a burger king he worked at!!!! fuker.he then came around here and there. one day he just disspaeard and showed up 5 yrs later, my mom was already re married and i had a "daddy" my mom told him he better see me at least one time a month or not at all. he chose not at all.

13 yrs later when i was 18 i chose to find him....i just wanted to know who he was....dod i have brothers? sisters? me and my dad who raised me loved eachother to death but just never got along.....to way different personalitys. there is alot more to that part of the story but i wont get into all that.

so i found my reall dad....i have 1 brother who just turned 10 and a sister who will be 9 next month. i am in love with them! any ways i am 22 now and have been in contact with them for the last 4 yrs. Well trying to be anyways. When i met him he said he was soooo happy and he was so sorry that he left when i was a baby but he was just a stupid kid on drugs....i forgave the ass.....i didnt have to but i did. he said he wanted to start a relationship with me....he said he wasnt going to ever replace the dadddy who raised me but would like me to have a father daughter relationship with him.... i though cool 2 dads why not! i never got along with the one so maybe my reall dad would be differnt............ i was wrong..... he never keeps in touch..... i call him and text him he dosnt get back to me for months at a time. he makes empty promisses to me all the fucking time, it breaks my heart.


So i havnt heard from him in 2 months ive e-maild him called him text him and nothing! Finally he called me today......i answerd the phone and he was like oh hold on a min adn was talking to somone in the background then said hey let me call u right back....... i waited all fucking day for him to call me back....every time my phone rang or i got a text my heart raced....it was never him....i fiannly broke down the last time it rang and it wasnt him. i cryed my eyes out.

my husband was mad. he picked up the phone and called him! he was like hey we need to talk my wife is crying her eyes out and is upset every day cuz u dont call her or anything and u said you wanted to be a part of her life. so my husband handed me the phone and my reall dad appologized.

i was sobbing and i told him...... YOU DIDNT WANT ME! I FOUND YOU! YOU SAID YOU WOULD AND WANTED TO BE IN MY LIFE! YOU DONT KEEP IN TOUCH!  i started crying harder i was like ....... YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IM ALL FUCKE UP IN THE HEAD BECAUSE OF THIS! I HAVE FUCKING ABANDONMENT ISUES AND ITS YOUR FAULT!


he first said sorry then tryed to make up stupid excuses of being busy then said no no....no excuses im sorry im an asshole and there is no excuse not to call you at least 1 time a week

he said he just recently had a friend of his and his mom call him mad at him for the same reason
he said he is horrible at keeping in touch with ppl
he said he is so sorry and he will try as hard as he can he promised to call me or at least send me a text every week
he said plz forgive me and dont be upset anymore
i said i forgive him and dont give me a reason to be upset and i wont be haha
he said him leaving me had nothing to do with him not wanting or loving me he was just stupid and selfish
he said i love ya kid i always have.... i still cant bring my self to tell him i love him too so i said thank you that means alot
then we talked about my weight loss surgeri and his new job in texas and life....
michaelxbaby86: im glad marty called him.

 

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i hope he keeps his promise and doesnt let u down anymore

thats awesome that you had the chance to get all of that off your chest. Its almost impossible to get the opportunity to do that. Good thing Marty called him and told him off. lol. Thats really sweet that he did that, it shows that he wont stand for anyone making you upset not even your family. I hope things do go as your dad said and you guys keep in touch more often.

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